Qnury.e's is Qnurye's personal website, where you can find some personal information about me, learn about my recent thoughts or projects.https://qnury.es/https://qnury.es/en/blog/tomb/https://qnury.es/en/blog/tomb/**In youth,** everything seems so close—that is the future. In old age, everything seems so distant—that is the past.Tue, 01 Apr 2025 00:32:00 GMT<p>Growth and aging are two inevitable things that are causally related. Beyond the many nights of insomnia due to embarrassing past events, I also occasionally marvel at how great my past self was. Whether good or bad, events either feel like they happened just yesterday or as if they belonged to a different century. When I flip through an old notebook from middle school, the author feels like another buried version of myself. I am proud of who I am today and comforted by who I used to be. The evidence left behind in organic matter and hard drives has contributed to my being. I treat this place as my tombstone, writing eulogies for the past that has been buried. You, as a visitor, may silently mourn for a part of me that has died, and then celebrate with me the rebirth of another part.</p> <p>Thinking and output happen simultaneously. Perhaps our brains also function as Next Token Prediction, which might explain the concept of output-driven learning. However, the decline of imagination and the loss of expressive desire are occurring at an age that doesn’t seem quite right for me. I will share some of my interesting thoughts here to motivate myself to keep thinking and progressing. You can subscribe to my death knell via RSS or a monthly newsletter to stay updated on my latest activities.</p>